15 July 2009

bienvenidos a Cuidad de Panama & Hola PCVs de Panama!

16 July 2009 11:12 am Panama Time

Been in Panama a few days now. My trip here was interesting enough--plenty of hurry up and wait. My medevac is the first time have left SVG. Well, I'm not counting the couple Grenadines so far and it was certainly the first time flying out since my arrival. The whole trip had a very surreal feel to it from the stepping onto the plane to getting settled in the hotel room.

I bounced from SVG to San Juan, Puerto Rico, which was in itself its own experience. I've never been to that airport before and since it is an entry point into the US, I had several customs/security checkpoints beyond the normal amount. For those who have not been there--that place is rather large. Hard to gauge and although it isn't as massive as Chicago O'hare--it certainly felt like it. Of course, I felt like I was tossed right back into shopping central with all of the traditional big name airport stores there--from food to clothing and duty free products. The big change came from the Spanish being spoken. After a few hours, I was underway to Panama City and arrived in the night. It's been awhile since I did any night flights and Panama City had a long stretch of lights along the coast. It reminded me of twinkling Christmas lights. On the flipside--it was really cool flying off SVG and being able to name all the villages I could see, including Spring Village! What was once a myriad of colors homes scattered along an island coastline as I flew in about 10 months ago has transformed into something familiar, something inside the 'comfort zone'.



Panama City, or Ciudad de Panama in Spanish, seems to be a very developed city. There are many towers (sky-scrapers) being built with all sorts of shops and stores lining the streets and heavy traffic zipping along. There are many casinos and a healthy nightlife buzzing with internationals. As I walk down the streets, I see faces that reflect world-wide ethic representation. In many ways it reminds me of the sprawling and hectic US cities, but does have its own flavor for sure.

From what I'm told, there is a large rise in foreign retirees coming here for the lower costs of living and well-reputed medical centers. From quick observation, that seems to be true as there are so many billboards advertising various new tower-homes of luxury and style mostly advertised in English as well as a plethora of medical centers and clinics. There seems to be some sort of medical care center on every street.

On the Peace Corps side of things, they have been fantastic thus far. Ricardo, a Panamanian working at the PC office as a medical assistant, has been wonderful in showing me around the general hotel area and pointing out hot spots of interest. He gave me a tour of the PC office and introduced me to other staff and volunteers. According to him, his main duty is to make sure that medevacs are taken care of and he has been nothing except excellent in that regard. He picks me up and takes me to the proper medical center--recall there are a few--and helps with translations to make things flow smoothly. I am very grateful for his help, because even if my Spanish was better I would still have a hard time communicating with my hoarse voice if I tried to ride one of the local buses--the diablo rojos. Yeah, it is a school bus; each one is personalized and given its own sense of flair. There are many of them that run all day and late into the night. I've rode in them a few times already...but with a crash course from another PCV.

I have also been thankful to the handful of volunteers that I've met so far. It has been a rather eye-opening experience to be able to bounce stories, situations, and perspectives off of others who at one time left home under similar ideals and to see how our experiences have differed. I want to particularly give a shout out to Yemi--an extended (in her 3rd year) PCV who has kinda taken me under her wing the past couple days. She has shown me a few good places to eat--as she's also a vegetarian--and we've spent a few hours just bouncing thoughts. She's also introduced me to several other volunteers and many of us went out the past couple of nights.

I suppose that I'm lucky to be able to meet so many volunteers here. I'm told there are approximately 170 PCVs here in Panama and there are typically only 10 or so that are in the city at any given time. However, there have been many more here since they are in for COS (close of service) medical check-ups and for other training programs. What has also been great has been talking to these other volunteers about the lines of work they do. In the Eastern Caribbean, we focus almost everything into our Community Development program--youth and NGO development sectors. I believe we has a couple Business Development PCVs, but they are few and far between. Panama PCVs are involved in diversified programs such as Community Economic Development, Environmental Health, Agriculture, and even a newer program on English-based Tourism. The logistics of the office and PCV work/communication seems to vary greatly and even the training programs are very different. I was surprised to find out how much PCVs are used to plan the PST (pre-service training) of new volunteers and senior volunteers play a much more active role during the PST training period.

I've always heard that people often refer to the EC post with romantic notions about our Caribbean homes and often wonder why we are working there. I was asked this a few times by PCVs here and I'll admit many EC PCVs (myself included) have doubted our purpose or position there. There is no doubt the need for our presence and we do recognize the need for poverty alleviation for sure. However, there is talk if we are a bit 'spoiled' and I don't know just how much of that might be true. PCVs in the EC--at least SVG--has readily access to cell phones that work just about anywhere--mine worked even up on the volcano, away from any settlements. We also have available cable tv and high-speed internet in our homes, for those who wish to pay for it. We have relatively quick and easy access to our capitol city (we are on a small island of course), we provides constant face-time with our staff and access to a wide range of stores for general needs. Do some of these things spoil us in SVG or are they more of a required tool to be used by us as the expectations of our partners here rise with the newer technology?

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My hats off to the Panama PCVs, as I've been told many of whom are living in the conditions atypically imagined by a volunteer. They follow a 70/30 policy--volunteers are placed in the 70% poorest villages and 30% of volunteers are placed in indigenous communitities. Point of info--there are no more indigenous communities on SVG anymore and have not been for a long time. Many of the volunteers here don't have electricity and use a river source for water. They build aqueducts and compost latrines. They work alongside communities trying to teach about why sources of clean water are so important; farming techniques to shift away from slash-n-burn; and how to develop business & tourism without destroying what resources they have. These are the sorts of things I had wondered if we still did in the Peace Corps (from a previous blog) and it seems I have found my answer.

Some of these volunteers have to walk for a long period of time, cross riverbeds (which means they don't travel out off-site if the river is too high), and then take a bus for several hours to reach the PC office in Panama City. They often bring large backpacks, because if they need to come to the office they stay a day or two to get everything done. Everyone I met here tells me they stay at hostels in they city and are really on their own for much of their needs. For the most part, everything they need is found out closer to their communities and are sustained from them. This is certainly not the case on SVG--but is that because of its smaller size? Of course this means that cell coverage, internet, and tv are certainly not available in many parts of the country yet. It is interesting to hear the contrasts between Panama City itself and the rural areas--like night and day.

Regardless of my time here for medical reasons, I'm glad to have come here and had the opportunity to meet these other volunteers and hear their stories. It isn't known if I will be able to do any site visits yet, but I'd surely like to get that opportunity. I'd much rather see how PCVs live and work here versus see the Panama Canal or beach fronts any day. To my pleasant surprise, many of the volunteers I was introduced to were on or closing their 3rd year of service. Wait...isn't PC just a 2 year gig? Yes, but we have the option (with staff support) to extend our service in the same or similar areas of work. It seems that Panama tends to groom many volunteers into additional years of service--they really love it here. I know I don't get much communication with volunteers from the other islands in the EC, but I don't know of anyone who has extended for additional service time...

--Oh and just to reflect again on how developed Panama City is...I spent a good part of the day at the Allbrook shopping mall yesterday that would give just about any mall I've been to in the US a run for its money. Very large two-story with so many stores and only a couple had multiple locations.

Brag point--I even got to see the new Harry Potter 6 (for only US$4) at a cinema that would rival the AMC30 screens back home. That place was nearly identical in theater design and style.


Stay safe and well
ciao tutti
~your local wannabe jedi
~Shawn

12 July 2009

Vincy Mas--Mardi Gras Parade--and a quick shot of Jouvert

12 July 2009 about 6am Vincy Time

So after a few days already of very little sleep, I completely crashed for several hours and got up in time to catch a ride back to town for the Mardi Gras Parade. It was a very cool experience.

A few months back, groups that design the costumes (new designs every year) started to release their concept drawings. Honestly--I didn't think much of them; in fact I thought many of them looked rather silly. However, I must admit that when I saw them actually worn by people in 3-D, they looked very cool indeed. These costume production designers to my understanding, create a bunch of these costumes and sell them to people who are interested in marching in the parade and competition. These costumes are not cheap! They range in the ball park from EC$300-500 from what I hear. One of the local guys, Boston, ended up getting his for less I think because he waited until the last minute to strike a bargain discount.

So each outfit has a designer and theme name to them. Some I know and are modeled after local things--like breadfruit and saltfish, ital (rasta-vegetarian style of cooking), adrenalin, goat cook, etc. There were so many varieties of costumes and the mass of people wearing them was amazing. I've been to parades before, but not ones that had some many people in coordinated outfits. I did notice there were predominately more women than men dressed up and I haven't looked into why as yet. There were also these giant costume pieces. I suppose they would compare to a float in a parade back home, except that most of these are very ornately detailed and usually pulled by a chest harness.

The costumed people would gather near Victoria Park, where they would go inside on stage and put on a little show for the judges. Then they would take places next to a party truck--which is really a rather large truck that has been rigged with a generator, many speakers, and a dj--and once they get a large enough group together, they add to the already marching parade procession. I heard there was a 2nd part of the judging that viewed groups on the street at a certain venue, but I didn't confirm it. After a lap around town, some groups kept going and others too breaks. As the day wore on....more and more costumed groups added to the fray, but also regular people started piling into the streets and jumping up with the party trucks and the costumed people. Eventually, it became another street jump till about 10pm when that marked the end of Carnival for this year. It was good times. From what I learned, one of the volunteers got the chance to spend time helping make the costumes and evenutally earned one to keep and wear for the parade. I might try to do that for next year.

Here's a link to the parade pics in my Facebook album.
Otherwise enjoy a sample from these below:



















And for those of you who scrolled down this far...
I don't have many pictures from the all night-morning J'Ouvert (joo-vay), because that was the wildest/craziest night of all of Carnival. I was warned ahead of time not to wear anything I cared about. People there go off the hook and paint each other up, dance however they want around the party trucks, and have a good time.

I wore my stained up banana shirt and wrote 'Ripe Banana' on the back--locals thought that was hilarious. I also wore my waterboots, because I could care less if those got painted up. The kicker was that I wore a green school girl's skirt--idea and provided for by my friend in the village Claire. She insisted on the idea saying that many people dress up like that. Honestly, a few did--but not many. It also made me the talk of Spring Village...although I haven't worked out just how good or bad that talk might be. Apparently, several say I am now the most macho guy in Spring simply because none of the other men were gutsy enough to do that. I wonder if macho is really the work though when a skirt is involved...? I also wore my silver sunglass frames minus lens that I got from the recently deceased Murphy in tribute--he loved his jump-ups.

At J'Ouvert, I went from whiteboy to human tomato. I got painted red from my head to waist nearly completely. I didn't even realize my entire head/face was coated read until I passed by a reflective store window later in the morning. I just about freaked, but it was a good time. This little bash started around midnight for us in town and the guys I was with finally pulled out around 10:30am. Somehow, we piled 5 adult men into the backseat of a regular sized 4-door sedan. That was painful. I managed to grab a couple pics from my friend Caroline, who was selling drinks in town at the time and we were hanging out near her spot. There are still a few more pics out there--better close ups from when we got back into Spring Village, but I don't have copies of those yet.

Here I am, the human tomato.


Ended up jumping in the river with a scrub brush, rag, and bar of soap--got most of it off, but I still had a red sheen for a few days. The paint seeped through my clothes so much that I think I might have damaged my local phone. Oops. I also have a cloth pouch I use as a wallet that was strapped around my neck--yeah...all the white parts are now pink. Good times. >.< Lesson learned.

Now I've got about 30 minutes till I'm expected to be picked up and head off to the airport...mur. Looks like I didn't sleep tonight after all. If you're not sure why I'm going or for what--hit the post archive on the left and look for the one called Medevac.

Stay safe and well
ciao tutti
~your local wannabe jedi
~Shawn

Vincy Mas--Fire Fete & Soca Monarch

12 July 2009 about 5:45 am Vincy time

Last post I gave a intro of the what's what that I've learned about Carnival so far.
About half of the stuff I did, I went with a local crew of guys from my village. I pass a rum and general foods shop--Black Struggler's Bar on my way home on a regular basis. There I've kinda been 'adopted' by the guys who hang out there: Clive, Boston, Moto, Alfa, Franky, Shany, and several more. It was they who first told me to make sure I got my ticket to Fire Fete.

Fire Fete & Soca Monarch--a comparison
Both events, Fire Fete and Soca Monarch were held in the large stadium area of Victoria Park. Both events had live soca music performers. The big differences: Fire Fete had lots of people, but nearly the massive crowds of Soca Monarch. This allowed us to dance and move about much easier. The stage shows at Fire Fete were not as dramatic as Soca Monarch, yet then again Soca Monarch was to compete to determine who would be the reigning champ until next year with all the prestige and winnings the go along with it.

Fire Fete was the same night as Panorama and I really wanted to go to that (same ticket got into both). However, they guys I was with didn't really want to leave until later--which put us arriving into town too later for that show. Oh well--next year. With Fire Fete, we all crammed into a van and did something akin to the pub crawls back home, but could have been called a village crawl. We stopped a few places to get 'warmed-up' for the festivities. In town, vendors lined the streets selling drinks, food, and other stuff--like my friend Caroline who did face painting.

Soca Monarch
Scott, Todd, Marco, (all other PCVs) and I got into this event for free. We were originally asked if we would like to participate on stage with Skinny Fabulous (the reigning 2008 Soca Monarch) who happens to live very close to Todd. I was estatic and jumped at the chance. However, things being what they are here...the communication with the guys running the performance plans didn't turn out so well. That means I didn't get to go to the practice sessions and costume sizing that would have been necessary for the stage show. However, the 4 of us still proved out worth by helping out as stage hands. We assembled costumes pieces/props and helped move out dance platforms to be used during Skinny Fabulous' performance. I also got the extra duty of running over to one of the large pavilions to work the lighting. Skinny needed the lights cut for the glow stick part of his shows.

Once the stage crew work was over, I joined the massive crowds--way too many people. I hung with a few of the other volunteers who were up in front, but later bounced over to where they guys from my village where hanging out. I had with me a banner flag that I made and waved about most of time I was in the crowd. Displaying banners is just one of those random things to do as part of the festivities. Soca Monarch is where people show off their banners and try to see who has the biggest and best of them all. Many of the perfomers were good. Skinny ended up winning and thus maintaining his crown as Soca Monarch, however there was a massive negative crowd reaction that wanted the #2 guy--Fireman to take the crown.

Click on this link to jump to my Facebook album with all my pics from that night.
Otherwise, here's a few selections from the night and some videos taken by others of the top performers. Also a chance for you to hear the music that has been playing on repeat for the past couple weeks---over and over and over and over. Well you get the idea.


Ottley, Clive and Moto (left to right)

one side of my banner

the other side--next year if I make one, it's only going to have one side and be in dark paints. Too hard to see the other colors at night and when light hits, then both sides are visible at the same time. Lesson learned.

Victoria Park full-up for Soca Monarch. Yeah I know it's dark and not very clear...but just wanted to try and show the massive crowd swell.

Making glow stick outfits. They were very cool.

Which looked like this guy!

Scott and I getting ready to move dance platforms out. Marco (left) and Todd (right) are turned around.

Between the rain the crowd dancing/stomping...the mud pits formed. My shoes became mud bricks. UG...a total pain to clean. Should have worn my waterboots in hindsight. Lesson learned.

Rosemay (on the left, my hostmom that I stayed with for 7 weeks) and Caroline selling drinks

Caroline painted up Ottley's face for the Soca Monarch fest.

SOCA MONARCH SONGS!!!!!!!
Winner--2008 and now 2009 Soca Monarch--Skinny Fabulous singing Beast Leh Go

I know that song quality isn't the best live....so here's the song normally:


2nd Place--Fireman Hooper singing Flags Invasion

Didn't find a normal version...only the live one. Sorry.


3rd Place--Problem Child singing Mad House
The videos I found at the time of this posts really did't have a decent live quality, so I'm jumping straight to the normal video so you can hear it.



Next post.....Mardi Gras Parade!

Stay safe and well
ciao tutti
~your local wannbe jedi
~Shawn

Carnival Review--Let it begin

12 July 209 just after 4am Vincy time

Alright....so I'm supposed to be sleeping, but that doesn't seem to be happening.
Said that I'd do a once over for the what's what from the recent SVG Carnival--so here it goes.

For those unfamiliar, Carnival is a massive cultural bash that is the largest tourism (on all levels) force here on St. Vincent & the Grenadines. I can't speak for the other Eastern Caribbean countries, but since they also have their own Carnival events I'll assume this to be true for them as well. In fact, some of the other islands hold their Carnival in short conjunction with the neighbor islands. I believe this helps attract the "Carnival hoppers" who island jump from one Carnival to the next.

A brief history...
As I've learned from AllAhWe.org, the Caribbean Carnival of today was born between the African cultures from the slave trade and the Catholic practices brought by colonialism. European Catholics have their 'carnevale' or 'putting away the meat' as practiced during their time of Lent and the Mardi Gras or 'fat Tuesday' time shortly thereafter as part of the religious celebrations. These traditions were brought with them and mixed with the African slaves. Over time, the African decorations from natural materials such as grass, feathers, bones, etc. became a standard of costuming for these events. Cultures and time evolve and have brought us into the festival periods of Carnival we know today. Carnival in this form can be found in many places throughout the world, not just in the West Indies--although they have their own distinct flavor for it here.

Technically the Carnival holiday here fell on July 6&7th but the events span more than a solid week and some events stretch intermittently as long as a month into what they call "Vincy Mas". Here's the date line-up for the Vincy Mas from this year:
  • 2 May--Official Launch
  • 30 May--Miss SVG pageant; multi-category pageant with the winner to represent in Miss Carnival
  • 19 June--Fantastic Friday; not really sure what that was
  • 26 June--Ragga Soca; music competition between live performers
  • 27 June--Junior Carnival; a jump-up time for the younger kids enjoy
  • 28 June--Junior Pan Fest; chance for the youth steel pan bands to come out and show their stuff & compete
  • 29 June--Mas on the Move; a street party I think
  • 39 June--Junior Calypso/Soca; youth performance competition by music categories
  • 1 July--Glow; a big bash with mostly Soca music and of course....lots of glowing goodies--sticks, wands, light-up toys
  • 2 July--Panorama & Fire Fete; a back-to-back event night with the regular steel pan band competitions followed by a soca jump-up
  • 3 July--Miss Carnival Pageant with contestants represented from several Eastern Caribbean countries.
  • 4 July--Soca Monarch; the largest and hands-down most popular event. A jump up contest show down between 20 soca artists with massive stage shows
  • 5 July--Dimanche Gras; an early look at some of the crazy costumes and calypso artists show down competitition
  • 6 July--Jouvert (pronouce it joo-vay); this bash starts early in the morning around 3ish and goes until mid morning about 9-10ish. Of course, many people are hanging out before then on the streets getting 'warmed up'. This is perhaps the craziest/most wild event of the Carnival.
  • 6 July--Evening Street Party; hang out on the sidelines or purchase a shirt 'pack' with goodies and join in the varied 'shirt jam' crews as they bounce through the streets of Kingstown dancing with party trucks.
  • 7 July--Mardi Gras; the final day of Carnival. It starts with costume judging and parades through town followed by a day of jovial parties and street jumps till about 10pm when everything stops.


These are some postcard art that were made available to promote the Carnival. More info can be found at the SVG Carnival website. You can link to that site to find out more about some of the performers, winners of the competitions, and more about the festivals and their sponsors.









More posts to come about the events I attended.

Stay safe and happy,
ciao tutti
~your local wannabe jedi
~Shawn

11 July 2009

Medevac

12 July 2009 1am local time

The time has come. Peace Corps is officially sending me to Panama for the throat surgery. I'm not sure entirely what it shall entail. I'll be leaving in a few hours for the airport--hoping to Puerto Rico for a few hours of layover and then bounced to Panama. Given the arrival time, I believe that I'll just be checking into my designated hotel and staying there the evening.



The next day, I'll meet with the Panama PCMO and Country Director for the formalities and get appointments set with doctors there. Then pending on those recommendations, I'll be given an operation date. Few more days of recovery and making sure all parts in in working order and I'll be on my way back to SVG. Shouldn't be more than 2 weeks--which is good, cause I have stuff to do! I'm not sure how my internet connection options will be while I'm there...but I'm bringing my laptop just in case. I'll send updates as I get them if possible.

During my downtime in Panama, I hope to be hitting the LSAT prep books hard! I haven't been spending nearly as much time with them as I'd want. Actually I'm guilty of not even opening them in over a week. Ug. I did send out a request to get an approval from the local University of the West Indies to take my LSAT exam here...but no dice as yet. If I don't hear anything back by the time I return from Panama, I'll probably have to start making arrangement to get back home for it.



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Earlier this week, we had our Carnival. I'll put up a post about that later on...but now I have to make sure I'm all packed to go and get a couple hour nap. It's late here, but I can't ever seem to fall asleep early.

For those who do not want to wait for me to post pics....here are some links to my photo albums:

Soca Monarch--a night of Soca music performers competing to be the #1 artist.

Mardi Gras Parade--so many cool costumes! I gotta get one for next year. ^_^

Jouvert (say it Joo-vay) with me all red, pics from other's cameras. (I still need to collect one more camera that has lots of good shots!

I'm crossing my fingers with our the fledgling Spring Village Action Council. We recently finished doing 85 surveys of community members to gather input and endorsement for series of development activities we hope to do in the near future. We had our general meeting tonight and I reviewed the results for those surveys--general stats and comments. Now I've put the ball in the groups's hands and have given them the 2 weeks that I'm away to sift through the comments and ideas to work out exactly which items they will decide to pursue. Then when I get back, I'll be showing them how to do a feasibility study and get the red tape moving along. The slow road is being walked one step at a time.

Alright....I'm off. Wish me luck.

alright...it's bad math humor.

Stay safe and happy
ciao tutti
~your local wannbe jedi
~Shawn

01 July 2009

Upcoming surgery and news from home.

Met with my PCMO (Peace Corps Medical Officer) yesterday and after our conversation solidified the next step on my throat problem. We have now approached the 'last' option of surgery. The local ENT doctor here has assured me that this is a relatively easy and quick procedure.



Treatment
Correction of the underlying voice abuse cures most nodules and prevents recurrence. Removal of the offending irritants allows healing, and voice therapy with a speech therapist reduces the trauma to the vocal cords from improper singing or protracted loud speaking. Nodules usually regress with voice therapy alone.

Most polyps must be surgically removed to restore a normal voice. Cold-knife microsurgical excision during direct microlaryngoscopy is preferable to laser excision, which is more likely to cause collateral thermal injury if improperly applied.

In microlaryngoscopy, an operating microscope is used to examine, biopsy, and operate on the larynx. Images can be recorded on video as well. The patient is anesthetized, and the airway is secured by high-pressure jet ventilation through the laryngoscope, endotracheal intubation, or, for an inadequate upper airway, tracheotomy. Because the microscope allows observation with magnification, tissue can be removed precisely and accurately, minimizing damage (possibly permanent) to the vocal mechanism. Laser surgery can be done through the optical system of the microscope to allow for precise cuts. Microlaryngoscopy is preferred for almost all laryngeal biopsies, for procedures involving benign tumors, and for many forms of phonosurgery.

Last full review/revision July 2008 by Clarence T. Sasaki, MD
Content last modified July 2008
http://www.merck.com/mmpe/sec08/ch092/ch092h.html


So the next step is preparing the necessary documents to make this happen. The current plan will be to ship me to Panama, to a hospital PC uses for the region, where I will have to be reassessed by additional doctors there. Pending that everyone agrees, I will have the little procedure and most likely be on the silent requirement for a few days. From what my PCMO told me, I'll expect to be off island for 10-14 days. What is up in the air is a recent request I've made to have the process done back in Washington DC. I've had some discussions with a volunteer on St. Lucia and was told that is the best way to go. Since my PCMO had mentioned DC or Panama as an earlier option--I hope it isn't too late to shift to DC. Heck, they'll have to fly me to Miami just to bounce me back to Panama instead of the hop up to DC.

---UPDATE TO BLOG (2 July, 10:20am): Just had a conference call with my PCMO and Country Director (boss of all the Eastern Caribbean islands on post). It seems that Panama is my only option for treatment--take it or leave it. By leave it, that means a refusal of proposed medical care which was clear spelled out (by PC policy) a request for early termination of service. So...that was an easy choice, I'm going to Panama although the exact dates are still TBA.---



If things stick to the intended schedule, I'll be going sometime during the week of July 12th... At first I figured the time away would really mess with my work plans here and then I realized that I haven't really been giving myself much of a break. No I don't consider time I spend on the computer as a break; even though I spend too much time in my opinion on the computer--half of it is work related anyways. So if I get sent of island for the operation, I can use that time to catch up on studying my LSAT prep books. Yeah, I haven't opened them in well over a week. >.< I need to get on that..

More info to come as I get it.

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I've heard from several people back home...and times are hard. Financially, emotionally, physically people I know are facing difficulties from so many different directions and some are a bit lost on what to do with themselves. Even though things move and shift here at their own West Indian pace of life--I feel somewhat removed as if living in a vacuum from the rest of the world. I read some news headlines on the net and get email/chat updates from friends and family. Still, it seems a bit awkward not being able to do much of anything from here.

Back home, friends and family could always count on me to pause whatever projects I was working on and give a hand where it was needed. Sometimes it would be spending hours talking at Dennys just till life's mysteries seemed to make a bit more sense. One more than one occasion it was surprising homies with several bags of groceries and things they could use to help out when they were down. It was answering the call in the middle of the night to settle disputes or roadside rescues.



If it is one thing that life assures us, it is that the drama will never stop. I used to claim that life is one giant soap opera--every day is like another episode and depending where you are and who you're with it's like guest starring in a different show. Right now, I'm in a different show and I can't make the cameo role back home. Nonetheless, the drama continues in both places. Personally, stress is what we make of it and managed as best we can. Even with my throat situation and the many tough experiences we have here as volunteers, I'd say my stress level is near negligible. Even with the varied levels of chaos back home amid friends and family alike, my personal stress levels are again negligible. Yet I can't help but feel isolated from it all--helpless, unable to be that person I always was.

Not much sense in complaining about it. But for any of my readers from back home--know that at least my thoughts are with you.



Sometimes a song strikes a chord. For those unfamiliar with Within Temptation, I highly recommend them.


Stay safe and happy
ciao tutti
~your local wannabe jedi
~Shawn